If you gave me just a coin for every time we say goodbye
Well I’d be rich beyond my dreams,
I’m sorry for my weary life
I know I’m not perfect
but I can smile
And I hope that you see this heart
behind my tired eyes
If you tell me that I can’t,
I will, I will,
I’ll try all night
And if I say I’m coming home,
I’ll probably be out all night
I know I can be afraid
but I’m alive
And I hope that you can trust this heart behing my tired eyes
Cause I’m no angel,
but please don’t think that I won’t try and try
I’m no angel,
but does that mean that I can’t live my life
I’m no angel,
but please don’t think that I can’t cry
I’m no angel,
but does that mean that I won’t fly
I know I’m around each night
And I know I always think I’m right
I can believe that you might look around
Cause I’m no angel,
but please don’t think that I won’t try and try
I’m no angel,
but does that mean that I can’t live my life
I’m no angel,
but please don’t think that I can’t cry
I’m no angel,
but does that mean that I won’t fly
Friday, November 19, 2004
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
An Email from a Friend
ELECTION REFLECTIONS by Shailja Patel
Let's not deceive ourselves that a Kerry victory would have been a victory for peace or justice. Either a Kerry victory, or a Democrat majority in the Senate would have halted, to a limited extent, the assault on civil liberties and reproductive rights. In arenas of foreign policy, and economic and social justice, the Kerry agenda showed little or no difference from Bush's, other than not being driven by evangelical Christian fanaticism. Kerry is a multilingual, diplomatically polished, intellectually sophisticated imperialist; Bush is a wacko fundamentalist Christian semi-
literate imperialist.
Or, to quote Peter Phillips:
"November 2 gave us a choice between war and more war, corporate globalization and more corporate globalization; the continuation of gifting billions of dollars to Israel, the Patriot Act and an expanded Patriot Act; a police state and a seriously growing police state, media monopoly and even bigger media monopolies; and wealth inequality or an even greater wealth divide."
Read the full article at
http://www.dissidentvoice.org/Nov2004/Phillips1105.htm
So why was I so depressed on November 3rd? To start with, the results were devastating for progressive politics at state and local level.
11 states passed bans on same sex unions. Prop 66 (to amend the 3 strikes law) was defeated in California by the narrowest of margins.
Campaigns across the country that activist friends put their all into were defeated. Some of these defeats are actually a direct result of the huge redirection of funds, volunteer efforts, and political energy into the Get Bush Out movement.
I'm heartsick at the $1 billion that went into the Kerry campaign, and what those dollars could have done for communities across the world. This demonstrates beyond all question the need for campaign finance reform. The premise that nothing is fundable but opposition to Bush has gutted progressive work across the planet in the past year. And no election that is not publicly funded, and free of special interests money, is representative in any way of the people.
Until we get big money out of politics, the candidates available to us will continue to reflect nothing more than alternative brands of the same product.
Then there are the votes that weren't counted. Or destroyed. I've delayed sending out this mailing because every day, new information pours into my inbox on the level of fraud in this election. David Cobb (Green Party Presidential Candidate) and Michael Badnarik (Libertarian Presidential Candidate) have announced their intention to demand a formal recount of the vote in Ohio. Other organizations are mounting legal challenges to the results declared. You can read more at:
http://www.thenation.com/doc.mhtml?i=041129&s==corn
http://www.blackboxvoting.org
http://www.votecobb.org/
Regardless of the conclusions you come to, it's obvious that the two- party corporate-funded electoral system is so deeply flawed, it's incapable of delivering representative government.
Replacing one pilot with another doesn't change the inherent structural problems of the machine. And yet we on the Left get caught up, over and over again, in putting our resources and energies into the battle to change figureheads.
It's kind of like being at a huge sports event. You may loathe the Superbowl. You may know without doubt that it is a corporate-driven money making enterprise. You know it has nothing to do with the dreams and aspirations millions of individuals project onto the teams. But a funny thing happens when you're in the stadium. Everyone around you is screaming, cheering, booing, groaning. There's no question that it matters to them. Intensely. That each movement on the field somehow channels their deepest hopes and fears. That they believe the players are playing for them, not for the team owners, not for the corporate sponsors, not for the multi-million dollar contracts and endorsement deals. So you start to applaud, politely, when they scream at a touchdown. You get up when your friends leap up. You feel your own excitement build. You start to think "We scored! We can win!"
Only after it's over, and `your' team has lost, do you remember that it wasn't `your' team. That you didn't buy into the game; the game was not about you. That this game has entry stakes of millions of dollars. You were never anything other than a spectator..
Yes, the outlook for the next 4 years is horrifying. But it's no more horrifying today than it was on November 1st, before the election. We have to remind ourselves that the game was never ours by choice, and never gave us a real choice to start with. Reject the game, for as long as it takes. Assert, again and again, that our lives, all lives, are larger than this travesty, and get back to the real work of dismantling the system. Demand real choices, through electoral reform, campaign finance reform.
I'm not gonna say: Don't mourn, organize. It's patronizing and offensive; the Left has been organizing for hundreds of years. I will not say: the arc of history is long but it bends towards justice, blah blah blah, because I honestly don't know if that is true.
I am going to say: while we are alive, let's choose to live. Let's stretch our brains and wills until we feel it, to genuine, hard analysis of what works and what doesn't. What truly moves us towards peace and justice, for everyone in the world. Let's be willing to admit our illusions and go back to the real. Let's think about systems, about structures, about history.
Empires collapse. However long and hideous their dominance, eventually they crumble under their own greed, violence and sheer stupidity. We don't know if justice will ultimately prevail.
But as long as we are alive, we can choose what forces we align ourselves with. What side of history we're going to be on. There's a joy that comes from that, despite all we're up against.
Where do we turn for hope? Someone sent me a quote from Vaclav Havel this week. Havel said:
"Hope is not the optimistic conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out."
Professor Wangari Maathai, Kenyan hero and one of my personal inspirations, won the Nobel Peace Prize a few weeks ago. That makes sense. On a daily basis, we remind ourselves that justice makes sense. We choose what makes sense. That's hope.
by Shailja Patel
Let's not deceive ourselves that a Kerry victory would have been a victory for peace or justice. Either a Kerry victory, or a Democrat majority in the Senate would have halted, to a limited extent, the assault on civil liberties and reproductive rights. In arenas of foreign policy, and economic and social justice, the Kerry agenda showed little or no difference from Bush's, other than not being driven by evangelical Christian fanaticism. Kerry is a multilingual, diplomatically polished, intellectually sophisticated imperialist; Bush is a wacko fundamentalist Christian semi-
literate imperialist.
Or, to quote Peter Phillips:
"November 2 gave us a choice between war and more war, corporate globalization and more corporate globalization; the continuation of gifting billions of dollars to Israel, the Patriot Act and an expanded Patriot Act; a police state and a seriously growing police state, media monopoly and even bigger media monopolies; and wealth inequality or an even greater wealth divide."
Read the full article at
http://www.dissidentvoice.org/Nov2004/Phillips1105.htm
So why was I so depressed on November 3rd? To start with, the results were devastating for progressive politics at state and local level.
11 states passed bans on same sex unions. Prop 66 (to amend the 3 strikes law) was defeated in California by the narrowest of margins.
Campaigns across the country that activist friends put their all into were defeated. Some of these defeats are actually a direct result of the huge redirection of funds, volunteer efforts, and political energy into the Get Bush Out movement.
I'm heartsick at the $1 billion that went into the Kerry campaign, and what those dollars could have done for communities across the world. This demonstrates beyond all question the need for campaign finance reform. The premise that nothing is fundable but opposition to Bush has gutted progressive work across the planet in the past year. And no election that is not publicly funded, and free of special interests money, is representative in any way of the people.
Until we get big money out of politics, the candidates available to us will continue to reflect nothing more than alternative brands of the same product.
Then there are the votes that weren't counted. Or destroyed. I've delayed sending out this mailing because every day, new information pours into my inbox on the level of fraud in this election. David Cobb (Green Party Presidential Candidate) and Michael Badnarik (Libertarian Presidential Candidate) have announced their intention to demand a formal recount of the vote in Ohio. Other organizations are mounting legal challenges to the results declared. You can read more at:
http://www.thenation.com/doc.mhtml?i=041129&s==corn
http://www.blackboxvoting.org
http://www.votecobb.org/
Regardless of the conclusions you come to, it's obvious that the two- party corporate-funded electoral system is so deeply flawed, it's incapable of delivering representative government.
Replacing one pilot with another doesn't change the inherent structural problems of the machine. And yet we on the Left get caught up, over and over again, in putting our resources and energies into the battle to change figureheads.
It's kind of like being at a huge sports event. You may loathe the Superbowl. You may know without doubt that it is a corporate-driven money making enterprise. You know it has nothing to do with the dreams and aspirations millions of individuals project onto the teams. But a funny thing happens when you're in the stadium. Everyone around you is screaming, cheering, booing, groaning. There's no question that it matters to them. Intensely. That each movement on the field somehow channels their deepest hopes and fears. That they believe the players are playing for them, not for the team owners, not for the corporate sponsors, not for the multi-million dollar contracts and endorsement deals. So you start to applaud, politely, when they scream at a touchdown. You get up when your friends leap up. You feel your own excitement build. You start to think "We scored! We can win!"
Only after it's over, and `your' team has lost, do you remember that it wasn't `your' team. That you didn't buy into the game; the game was not about you. That this game has entry stakes of millions of dollars. You were never anything other than a spectator..
Yes, the outlook for the next 4 years is horrifying. But it's no more horrifying today than it was on November 1st, before the election. We have to remind ourselves that the game was never ours by choice, and never gave us a real choice to start with. Reject the game, for as long as it takes. Assert, again and again, that our lives, all lives, are larger than this travesty, and get back to the real work of dismantling the system. Demand real choices, through electoral reform, campaign finance reform.
I'm not gonna say: Don't mourn, organize. It's patronizing and offensive; the Left has been organizing for hundreds of years. I will not say: the arc of history is long but it bends towards justice, blah blah blah, because I honestly don't know if that is true.
I am going to say: while we are alive, let's choose to live. Let's stretch our brains and wills until we feel it, to genuine, hard analysis of what works and what doesn't. What truly moves us towards peace and justice, for everyone in the world. Let's be willing to admit our illusions and go back to the real. Let's think about systems, about structures, about history.
Empires collapse. However long and hideous their dominance, eventually they crumble under their own greed, violence and sheer stupidity. We don't know if justice will ultimately prevail.
But as long as we are alive, we can choose what forces we align ourselves with. What side of history we're going to be on. There's a joy that comes from that, despite all we're up against.
Where do we turn for hope? Someone sent me a quote from Vaclav Havel this week. Havel said:
"Hope is not the optimistic conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out."
Professor Wangari Maathai, Kenyan hero and one of my personal inspirations, won the Nobel Peace Prize a few weeks ago. That makes sense. On a daily basis, we remind ourselves that justice makes sense. We choose what makes sense. That's hope.
by Shailja Patel
Thursday, November 11, 2004
It is all I can do
I will their face
all on top of my face
I am the perfect target screen
For your blindly feuled rage
I bare the brunt
of your long buried pain
I don't mind helping you out
But I want you to remember my name
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I need remind you,
but I won't take it all on
Past riddled rage
I see the buttons I engage
Is my dignity in place?
I'm all too happy to switch
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I need remind you,
but I won't take it all on
Lest I find my voice
Find the strength to stand up to you
Lest I stay to my limit
And on take only what is mine to
We are a team
I'm here to help mend and rescind
All I trigger unknowingly
I job I hold in high esteem
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I need remind you,
but I won't take it all on
I'll only take some of it
all on top of my face
I am the perfect target screen
For your blindly feuled rage
I bare the brunt
of your long buried pain
I don't mind helping you out
But I want you to remember my name
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I need remind you,
but I won't take it all on
Past riddled rage
I see the buttons I engage
Is my dignity in place?
I'm all too happy to switch
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I need remind you,
but I won't take it all on
Lest I find my voice
Find the strength to stand up to you
Lest I stay to my limit
And on take only what is mine to
We are a team
I'm here to help mend and rescind
All I trigger unknowingly
I job I hold in high esteem
It's not all me
It's not all my fault
I need remind you,
but I won't take it all on
I'll only take some of it
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Never Easy
Every time you raise your voice
I see the greener grass
Every time you run for cover
I see this pasture
Every time we're in a funk
I picture a different choice
Every time we're in a rut
This distant grandeur
My tendency to want to do away feels natural
My urgency to dream of softer places feels understandable
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through T
he only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
Every time I'm confused
I think there must be easier ways
Every time our horns are locked on toweling throwing
Every time we're at a loss, we've bolted from difficulty
Anytime we're still made of final bowing
My tendency to want to hide away feels easier and
The tendency is picturing another place comforting to go
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
We could just walk away and hide our hands in the sand
We could just call it quits, only to start over again
With somebody else
Every time we're stuck in struggle, I'm down for the count that down
Every time I dream of quick fix I'm swaged
Now I know it's hard when it's through
And I'm damned if I don't know quick fix way
But formerly mistreat me silence now outdated
My tendency to want to run feels unnatural now
The urgency to want to give to you what I want most feels good
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
I see the greener grass
Every time you run for cover
I see this pasture
Every time we're in a funk
I picture a different choice
Every time we're in a rut
This distant grandeur
My tendency to want to do away feels natural
My urgency to dream of softer places feels understandable
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through T
he only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
Every time I'm confused
I think there must be easier ways
Every time our horns are locked on toweling throwing
Every time we're at a loss, we've bolted from difficulty
Anytime we're still made of final bowing
My tendency to want to hide away feels easier and
The tendency is picturing another place comforting to go
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
We could just walk away and hide our hands in the sand
We could just call it quits, only to start over again
With somebody else
Every time we're stuck in struggle, I'm down for the count that down
Every time I dream of quick fix I'm swaged
Now I know it's hard when it's through
And I'm damned if I don't know quick fix way
But formerly mistreat me silence now outdated
My tendency to want to run feels unnatural now
The urgency to want to give to you what I want most feels good
The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Portishead
It's a fire
These dreams they pass me by
This salvation I desire
Keeps getting me down
Cos we need to
Recognise mistakes
For time and again
So let it be known for what we believe in
I can see no reason for it to fail....
...Cos this life is a farce
I can't breathe through this mask
Like a fool
So breathe on, sister breathe om
From this oneself
Testify or tell
Its fooling us now
So let it be known for what we believe in
I can see no reason for it to fail...
Cos this life is a farce
I can't breathe through this mask
Like a fool
So breathe on, little sister, breathe on
Ohh so breathe on, little sister, like a fool
These dreams they pass me by
This salvation I desire
Keeps getting me down
Cos we need to
Recognise mistakes
For time and again
So let it be known for what we believe in
I can see no reason for it to fail....
...Cos this life is a farce
I can't breathe through this mask
Like a fool
So breathe on, sister breathe om
From this oneself
Testify or tell
Its fooling us now
So let it be known for what we believe in
I can see no reason for it to fail...
Cos this life is a farce
I can't breathe through this mask
Like a fool
So breathe on, little sister, breathe on
Ohh so breathe on, little sister, like a fool
NOT in my Country!
Fuckers...
http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/usatoday/20041109/pl_usatoday/druggistsrefusetogiveoutpill
Time to move to Europe.
Kisses
http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/usatoday/20041109/pl_usatoday/druggistsrefusetogiveoutpill
Time to move to Europe.
Kisses
Thank you Michael
17 Reasons Not to Slit Your Wrists...by Michael Moore
Dear Friends,
Ok, it sucks. Really sucks. But before you go and cash it all in, let's, in the words of Monty Python, “always look on the bright side of life!” There IS some good news from Tuesday's election.
Here are 17 reasons not to slit your wrists:
1. It is against the law for George W. Bush to run for president again.
2. Bush's victory was the NARROWEST win for a sitting president since Woodrow Wilson in 1916.
3. The only age group in which the majority voted for Kerry was young adults (Kerry: 54%, Bush: 44%), proving once again that your parents are always wrong and you should never listen to them.
4. In spite of Bush's win, the majority of Americans still think the country is headed in the wrong direction (56%), think the war wasn't worth fighting (51%), and don’t approve of the job George W. Bush is doing (52%). (Note to foreigners: Don't try to figure this one out. It's an American thing, like Pop Tarts.)
5. The Republicans will not have a filibuster-proof 60-seat majority in the Senate. If the Democrats do their job, Bush won't be able to pack the Supreme Court with right-wing ideologues. Did I say "if the Democrats do their job?" Um, maybe better to scratch this one.
6. Michigan voted for Kerry! So did the entire Northeast, the birthplace of our democracy. So did 6 of the 8 Great Lakes States. And the whole West Coast! Plus Hawaii. Ok, that's a start. We've got most of the fresh water, all of Broadway, and Mt. St. Helens. We can dehydrate them or bury them in lava. And no more show tunes!
7. Once again we are reminded that the buckeye is a nut, and not just any old nut -- a poisonous nut. A great nation was felled by a poisonous nut. May Ohio State pay dearly this Saturday when it faces Michigan.
8. 88% of Bush's support came from white voters. In 50 years, America will no longer have a white majority. Hey, 50 years isn't such a long time! If you're ten years old and reading this, your golden years will be truly golden and you will be well cared for in your old age.
9. Gays, thanks to the ballot measures passed on Tuesday, cannot get married in 11 new states. Thank God. Just think of all those wedding gifts we won't have to buy now.
10. Five more African Americans were elected as members of Congress, including the return of Cynthia McKinney of Georgia. It's always good to have more blacks in there fighting for us and doing the job our candidates can't.
11. The CEO of Coors was defeated for Senate in Colorado. Drink up!
12. Admit it: We like the Bush twins and we don't want them to go away.
13. At the state legislative level, Democrats picked up a net of at least 3 chambers in Tuesday's
elections. Of the 98 partisan-controlled state legislative chambers (house/assembly and senate), Democrats went into the 2004 elections in control of 44 chambers, Republicans controlled 53 chambers, and 1 chamber was tied. After Tuesday, Democrats now control 47 chambers, Republicans control 49 chambers, 1 chamber is tied and 1 chamber (Montana House) is still undecided.
14. Bush is now a lame duck president. He will have no greater moment than the one he's having this week. It's all downhill for him from here on out -- and, more significantly, he's just not going to want to do all the hard work that will be expected of him. It'll be like everyone's last month in 12th grade -- you've already made it, so it's party time! Perhaps he'll treat the next four years like a permanent Friday, spending even more time at the ranch or in Kennebunkport. And why shouldn't he? He's already proved his point, avenged his father and kicked our ass.
15. Should Bush decide to show up to work and take this country down a very dark road, it is also just as likely that either of the following two scenarios will happen: a) Now that he doesn't ever need to pander to the Christian conservatives again to get elected, someone may whisper in his ear that he should spend these last four years building "a legacy" so that history will render a kinder verdict on him and thus he will not push for too aggressive a right-wing agenda; or b) He will become so cocky and arrogant -- and thus, reckless -- that he will commit a blunder of such major proportions that even his own party will have to remove him from office.
16. There are nearly 300 million Americans -- 200 million of them of voting age. We only lost by three and a half million! That's not a landslide -- it means we're almost there. Imagine losing by 20 million. If you had 58 yards to go before you reached the goal line and then you barreled down 55 of those yards, would you stop on the three yard line, pick up the ball and go home crying -- especially when you get to start the next down on the three yard line? Of course not! Buck up! Have hope! More sports analogies are coming!!!
17. Finally and most importantly, over 55 million Americans voted for the candidate dubbed "The #1 Liberal in the Senate." That's more than the total number of voters who voted for either Reagan, Bush I, Clinton or Gore. Again, more people voted for Kerry than Reagan. If the media are looking for a trend it should be this -- that so many Americans were, for the first time since Kennedy, willing to vote for an out-and-out liberal. The country has always been filled with evangelicals -- that is not news. What IS news is that so many people have shifted toward a Massachusetts liberal. In fact, that's BIG news. Which means, don't expect the mainstream media, the ones who brought you the Iraq War, to ever report the real truth about November 2, 2004. In fact, it's better that they don't. We'll need the element of surprise in 2008.
Feeling better? I hope so. As my friend Mort wrote me yesterday, "My Romanian grandfather used to say to me, 'Remember, Morton, this is such a wonderful country -- it doesn't even need a president!'"
But it needs us. Rest up, I'll write you again tomorrow.
Yours,
Michael Moore MMFlint@aol.com www.michaelmoore.com
Kisses
Dear Friends,
Ok, it sucks. Really sucks. But before you go and cash it all in, let's, in the words of Monty Python, “always look on the bright side of life!” There IS some good news from Tuesday's election.
Here are 17 reasons not to slit your wrists:
1. It is against the law for George W. Bush to run for president again.
2. Bush's victory was the NARROWEST win for a sitting president since Woodrow Wilson in 1916.
3. The only age group in which the majority voted for Kerry was young adults (Kerry: 54%, Bush: 44%), proving once again that your parents are always wrong and you should never listen to them.
4. In spite of Bush's win, the majority of Americans still think the country is headed in the wrong direction (56%), think the war wasn't worth fighting (51%), and don’t approve of the job George W. Bush is doing (52%). (Note to foreigners: Don't try to figure this one out. It's an American thing, like Pop Tarts.)
5. The Republicans will not have a filibuster-proof 60-seat majority in the Senate. If the Democrats do their job, Bush won't be able to pack the Supreme Court with right-wing ideologues. Did I say "if the Democrats do their job?" Um, maybe better to scratch this one.
6. Michigan voted for Kerry! So did the entire Northeast, the birthplace of our democracy. So did 6 of the 8 Great Lakes States. And the whole West Coast! Plus Hawaii. Ok, that's a start. We've got most of the fresh water, all of Broadway, and Mt. St. Helens. We can dehydrate them or bury them in lava. And no more show tunes!
7. Once again we are reminded that the buckeye is a nut, and not just any old nut -- a poisonous nut. A great nation was felled by a poisonous nut. May Ohio State pay dearly this Saturday when it faces Michigan.
8. 88% of Bush's support came from white voters. In 50 years, America will no longer have a white majority. Hey, 50 years isn't such a long time! If you're ten years old and reading this, your golden years will be truly golden and you will be well cared for in your old age.
9. Gays, thanks to the ballot measures passed on Tuesday, cannot get married in 11 new states. Thank God. Just think of all those wedding gifts we won't have to buy now.
10. Five more African Americans were elected as members of Congress, including the return of Cynthia McKinney of Georgia. It's always good to have more blacks in there fighting for us and doing the job our candidates can't.
11. The CEO of Coors was defeated for Senate in Colorado. Drink up!
12. Admit it: We like the Bush twins and we don't want them to go away.
13. At the state legislative level, Democrats picked up a net of at least 3 chambers in Tuesday's
elections. Of the 98 partisan-controlled state legislative chambers (house/assembly and senate), Democrats went into the 2004 elections in control of 44 chambers, Republicans controlled 53 chambers, and 1 chamber was tied. After Tuesday, Democrats now control 47 chambers, Republicans control 49 chambers, 1 chamber is tied and 1 chamber (Montana House) is still undecided.
14. Bush is now a lame duck president. He will have no greater moment than the one he's having this week. It's all downhill for him from here on out -- and, more significantly, he's just not going to want to do all the hard work that will be expected of him. It'll be like everyone's last month in 12th grade -- you've already made it, so it's party time! Perhaps he'll treat the next four years like a permanent Friday, spending even more time at the ranch or in Kennebunkport. And why shouldn't he? He's already proved his point, avenged his father and kicked our ass.
15. Should Bush decide to show up to work and take this country down a very dark road, it is also just as likely that either of the following two scenarios will happen: a) Now that he doesn't ever need to pander to the Christian conservatives again to get elected, someone may whisper in his ear that he should spend these last four years building "a legacy" so that history will render a kinder verdict on him and thus he will not push for too aggressive a right-wing agenda; or b) He will become so cocky and arrogant -- and thus, reckless -- that he will commit a blunder of such major proportions that even his own party will have to remove him from office.
16. There are nearly 300 million Americans -- 200 million of them of voting age. We only lost by three and a half million! That's not a landslide -- it means we're almost there. Imagine losing by 20 million. If you had 58 yards to go before you reached the goal line and then you barreled down 55 of those yards, would you stop on the three yard line, pick up the ball and go home crying -- especially when you get to start the next down on the three yard line? Of course not! Buck up! Have hope! More sports analogies are coming!!!
17. Finally and most importantly, over 55 million Americans voted for the candidate dubbed "The #1 Liberal in the Senate." That's more than the total number of voters who voted for either Reagan, Bush I, Clinton or Gore. Again, more people voted for Kerry than Reagan. If the media are looking for a trend it should be this -- that so many Americans were, for the first time since Kennedy, willing to vote for an out-and-out liberal. The country has always been filled with evangelicals -- that is not news. What IS news is that so many people have shifted toward a Massachusetts liberal. In fact, that's BIG news. Which means, don't expect the mainstream media, the ones who brought you the Iraq War, to ever report the real truth about November 2, 2004. In fact, it's better that they don't. We'll need the element of surprise in 2008.
Feeling better? I hope so. As my friend Mort wrote me yesterday, "My Romanian grandfather used to say to me, 'Remember, Morton, this is such a wonderful country -- it doesn't even need a president!'"
But it needs us. Rest up, I'll write you again tomorrow.
Yours,
Michael Moore MMFlint@aol.com www.michaelmoore.com
Kisses
Friday, November 05, 2004
Christmas makes me giddy...
My GOD I love shopping. It is almost a sickness, but my BF says he really enjoys watching me shop so I will remain illin'. I have nearly finished purchasing Xmas gifts for my BF's family, then we will cover mine and finally friends. It is going to be a GREAT Xmas. My BF and I love the holidays and we have spent the last couple of years together with our families, both in Marin and in SD. This year will be no different. Except I think it may even be better than the last few because the man and I have finally figured it out.
I am looking forward to spending time with the BF's dad and step-mom. Have only had one dinner with them and it was something. Can't wait to hang out with his mom too, I just love her and her husband! They are so good to me.
Of course, my family is a blast. Goofy like me, festive in a kinda over the top way (ummm, just like me). I can't wait!
Kisses
I am looking forward to spending time with the BF's dad and step-mom. Have only had one dinner with them and it was something. Can't wait to hang out with his mom too, I just love her and her husband! They are so good to me.
Of course, my family is a blast. Goofy like me, festive in a kinda over the top way (ummm, just like me). I can't wait!
Kisses
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
I just don't own enough Satan Jewelry!
Catch up already...
Big news of the day...this:
http://www.audiusa.com/model_home/0,,bodyStyleId-1,00.html?bodystyle=a4sedan
That's right! I bought myself a 2005 A4. My car was a 2001 and out of warranty (this is where I get my nickname). It is black on black and so beautiful I almost cry whenever I walk out the door and see it sitting there waiting for me. I am my mother's daughter, that is for sure.
In other news, let me say that the elections made me so sad. Carmen and I have agreed to get our citizenships (mine English, hers Spanish, both on our mothers side) and move to Europe when she graduates. I am shocked that the nation is so ignorant and or stupid as to let that man stay in office for another four years:
PLEASE CONSIDER MY EXPERIENCE WHEN VOTING IN 2004…errrr
EXPERIENCE AND EDUCATION
Law Enforcement:
I was arrested in Kennebunkport, Maine, in 1976 for driving under the influence of alcohol. I pleaded guilty, paid a fine, and had my driver's license suspended for 30 days. My Texas driving record has been "lost" and is not available.
Military:
I joined the Texas Air National Guard and went AWOL. I refused to take a drug test or answer any questions about my drug use. By joining the Texas Air National Guard, I was able to avoid combat duty in Vietnam.
College:
I graduated from Yale University with a low C average. I was a cheerleader.
PAST WORK EXPERIENCE:
I ran for U.S. Congress and lost.
I began my career in the oil business in Midland, Texas in 1975.
I bought an oil company, but couldn't find any oil in Texas.
The company went bankrupt shortly after I sold all my stock.
I bought the Texas Rangers baseball team in a sweetheart deal that took land using taxpayer money.
With the help of my father and our friends in the oil industry (including Enron CEO Ken Lay), I was elected governor of Texas.
ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS GOVERNOR OF TEXAS:
I changed Texas pollution laws to favor power and oil companies, making Texas the most polluted state in the Union. During my tenure, Houston replaced Los Angeles as the most smog-ridden city in America.
I cut taxes and bankrupted the Texas treasury to the tune of billions in borrowed money.
I set the record for the most executions by any governor in American history.
With the help of my brother, the governor of Florida, and my father's appointments to the Supreme Court, I became President after losing by over 500,000 votes.
ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS PRESIDENT:
I am the first President in U.S. history to enter office with a criminal record.
I invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of *over one billion dollars per week*.
I spent the U.S. surplus and effectively bankrupted the U.S. Treasury.
I shattered the record for the largest annual deficit in U.S. history.
I set an economic record for most private bankruptcies filed in any 12-month period.
I set the all-time record for most foreclosures in a 12-month period.
I set the all-time record for the biggest drop in the history of the U.S. stock market.
In my first year in office, over 2 million Americans lost their jobs and that trend continues every month.
I'm proud that the members of my cabinet are the richest of any administration in U.S. history. My "poorest millionaire," Condoleeza Rice, has a Chevron oil tanker named after her.
I set the record for most campaign fundraising trips by a U.S. President.
I am the all-time U.S. and world record-holder for receiving the most corporate campaign donations.
One of my best friends, Kenneth Lay, presided over the largest corporate bankruptcy fraud in U.S. History, Enron.
My political party used Enron private jets and corporate attorneys to assure my success with the U.S. Supreme Court during my election decision.
I have protected my friends at Enron and Halliburton against investigation or prosecution. More time and money was spent investigating the Monica Lewinsky affair than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corporate rip-offs in history.
I presided over the biggest energy crisis in U.S. history and refused to intervene when corruption involving the oil industry was revealed.
I presided over the highest gasoline prices in U.S. history.
I changed the U.S. policy to allow convicted criminals to be awarded government contracts.
I appointed more convicted criminals to administration than any President in U.S. history.
I created the Ministry of Homeland Security, the largest bureaucracy in the history of the United States government.
I've broken more international treaties than any President in U.S. history.
I am the first President in U.S. history to have the United Nations remove the U.S. from the Human Rights Commission.
I withdrew the U.S. from the World Court of Law.
I refused to allow inspector's access to U.S. "prisoners of war" detainees and thereby have refused to abide by the Geneva Convention.
I am the first President in history to refuse United Nations election inspectors (during the 2002 U.S. election).
I set the record for fewest numbers of press conferences of any President since the advent of television.
I set the all-time record for most days on vacation in any one-year period. After taking off the entire month of August, I presided over the worst security failure in U.S. history.
I garnered the most sympathy for the U.S. after the World Trade Center attacks and less than a year later made the U.S. the most hated country in the world, the largest failure of diplomacy in world history.
I have set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously protest me in public venues (15 million people), shattering the record for protests against any person in the history of mankind.
I am the first President in U.S. history to order an unprovoked, preemptive attack and the military occupation of a sovereign nation. I did so against the will of the United Nations, the majority of U.S. citizens, and the world community.
I have cut health care benefits for war veterans and support a cut in duty benefits for active duty troops and their families -- in wartime.
In my State of the Union Address, I lied about our reasons for attacking Iraq and then blamed the lies on our British friends.
I am the first President in history to have a majority of Europeans (71%) view my presidency as the biggest threat to world peace and security.
I am supporting development of a nuclear "Tactical Bunker Buster," a WMD.
I have so far failed to fulfill my pledge to bring Osama Bin Laden to justice.
During the Iraq War and Occupation thousands of American troops were injured and killed. I did not have the time to attend any of the funerals for our fallen soldiers but I did have the time to attend more than 43 fundraising events of the Republican party.
RECORDS AND REFERENCES:
All records of my tenure as governor of Texas are now in my father's library, sealed and unavailable for public view.
All records of SEC investigations into my insider trading and my bankrupt companies are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view.
All records or minutes from meetings that I, or my Vice-President, attended regarding public energy policy are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public review.
Our President...makes you proud, don't it?
Kisses
Big news of the day...this:
http://www.audiusa.com/model_home/0,,bodyStyleId-1,00.html?bodystyle=a4sedan
That's right! I bought myself a 2005 A4. My car was a 2001 and out of warranty (this is where I get my nickname). It is black on black and so beautiful I almost cry whenever I walk out the door and see it sitting there waiting for me. I am my mother's daughter, that is for sure.
In other news, let me say that the elections made me so sad. Carmen and I have agreed to get our citizenships (mine English, hers Spanish, both on our mothers side) and move to Europe when she graduates. I am shocked that the nation is so ignorant and or stupid as to let that man stay in office for another four years:
PLEASE CONSIDER MY EXPERIENCE WHEN VOTING IN 2004…errrr
EXPERIENCE AND EDUCATION
Law Enforcement:
I was arrested in Kennebunkport, Maine, in 1976 for driving under the influence of alcohol. I pleaded guilty, paid a fine, and had my driver's license suspended for 30 days. My Texas driving record has been "lost" and is not available.
Military:
I joined the Texas Air National Guard and went AWOL. I refused to take a drug test or answer any questions about my drug use. By joining the Texas Air National Guard, I was able to avoid combat duty in Vietnam.
College:
I graduated from Yale University with a low C average. I was a cheerleader.
PAST WORK EXPERIENCE:
I ran for U.S. Congress and lost.
I began my career in the oil business in Midland, Texas in 1975.
I bought an oil company, but couldn't find any oil in Texas.
The company went bankrupt shortly after I sold all my stock.
I bought the Texas Rangers baseball team in a sweetheart deal that took land using taxpayer money.
With the help of my father and our friends in the oil industry (including Enron CEO Ken Lay), I was elected governor of Texas.
ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS GOVERNOR OF TEXAS:
I changed Texas pollution laws to favor power and oil companies, making Texas the most polluted state in the Union. During my tenure, Houston replaced Los Angeles as the most smog-ridden city in America.
I cut taxes and bankrupted the Texas treasury to the tune of billions in borrowed money.
I set the record for the most executions by any governor in American history.
With the help of my brother, the governor of Florida, and my father's appointments to the Supreme Court, I became President after losing by over 500,000 votes.
ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS PRESIDENT:
I am the first President in U.S. history to enter office with a criminal record.
I invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of *over one billion dollars per week*.
I spent the U.S. surplus and effectively bankrupted the U.S. Treasury.
I shattered the record for the largest annual deficit in U.S. history.
I set an economic record for most private bankruptcies filed in any 12-month period.
I set the all-time record for most foreclosures in a 12-month period.
I set the all-time record for the biggest drop in the history of the U.S. stock market.
In my first year in office, over 2 million Americans lost their jobs and that trend continues every month.
I'm proud that the members of my cabinet are the richest of any administration in U.S. history. My "poorest millionaire," Condoleeza Rice, has a Chevron oil tanker named after her.
I set the record for most campaign fundraising trips by a U.S. President.
I am the all-time U.S. and world record-holder for receiving the most corporate campaign donations.
One of my best friends, Kenneth Lay, presided over the largest corporate bankruptcy fraud in U.S. History, Enron.
My political party used Enron private jets and corporate attorneys to assure my success with the U.S. Supreme Court during my election decision.
I have protected my friends at Enron and Halliburton against investigation or prosecution. More time and money was spent investigating the Monica Lewinsky affair than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corporate rip-offs in history.
I presided over the biggest energy crisis in U.S. history and refused to intervene when corruption involving the oil industry was revealed.
I presided over the highest gasoline prices in U.S. history.
I changed the U.S. policy to allow convicted criminals to be awarded government contracts.
I appointed more convicted criminals to administration than any President in U.S. history.
I created the Ministry of Homeland Security, the largest bureaucracy in the history of the United States government.
I've broken more international treaties than any President in U.S. history.
I am the first President in U.S. history to have the United Nations remove the U.S. from the Human Rights Commission.
I withdrew the U.S. from the World Court of Law.
I refused to allow inspector's access to U.S. "prisoners of war" detainees and thereby have refused to abide by the Geneva Convention.
I am the first President in history to refuse United Nations election inspectors (during the 2002 U.S. election).
I set the record for fewest numbers of press conferences of any President since the advent of television.
I set the all-time record for most days on vacation in any one-year period. After taking off the entire month of August, I presided over the worst security failure in U.S. history.
I garnered the most sympathy for the U.S. after the World Trade Center attacks and less than a year later made the U.S. the most hated country in the world, the largest failure of diplomacy in world history.
I have set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously protest me in public venues (15 million people), shattering the record for protests against any person in the history of mankind.
I am the first President in U.S. history to order an unprovoked, preemptive attack and the military occupation of a sovereign nation. I did so against the will of the United Nations, the majority of U.S. citizens, and the world community.
I have cut health care benefits for war veterans and support a cut in duty benefits for active duty troops and their families -- in wartime.
In my State of the Union Address, I lied about our reasons for attacking Iraq and then blamed the lies on our British friends.
I am the first President in history to have a majority of Europeans (71%) view my presidency as the biggest threat to world peace and security.
I am supporting development of a nuclear "Tactical Bunker Buster," a WMD.
I have so far failed to fulfill my pledge to bring Osama Bin Laden to justice.
During the Iraq War and Occupation thousands of American troops were injured and killed. I did not have the time to attend any of the funerals for our fallen soldiers but I did have the time to attend more than 43 fundraising events of the Republican party.
RECORDS AND REFERENCES:
All records of my tenure as governor of Texas are now in my father's library, sealed and unavailable for public view.
All records of SEC investigations into my insider trading and my bankrupt companies are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view.
All records or minutes from meetings that I, or my Vice-President, attended regarding public energy policy are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public review.
Our President...makes you proud, don't it?
Kisses
Monday, October 25, 2004
Most of us have one of these...
A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.
Saturday, September 25, 2004
The Golden Gate Bridge has a HUGE button!
First of all, I know all of you thought I had become a smoker since I hadn't posted but you are wrong, wrong, wrong (and not very supportive.) I am three days from a full month of not smoking and it is making me giddy!
I had the loveliest day today. My man and I went for a stroll on the GG Bridge. He had never done it and I have only gone once (bad Bay Area babe!) so he dragged my lazy butt away from my latest obession (Jewel Quest {thanks Pea}) and we went for lunch and then a walk over the water. The fog was low so it was chilly but we walked hand-in-hand and laughed and made fun of one another (and of others I am afraid) until we couldn't take it anymore. This man makes me smile so often my teeth hurt. I don't think there is a level of silliness he won't sink to. How cute is that?
Kisses
I had the loveliest day today. My man and I went for a stroll on the GG Bridge. He had never done it and I have only gone once (bad Bay Area babe!) so he dragged my lazy butt away from my latest obession (Jewel Quest {thanks Pea}) and we went for lunch and then a walk over the water. The fog was low so it was chilly but we walked hand-in-hand and laughed and made fun of one another (and of others I am afraid) until we couldn't take it anymore. This man makes me smile so often my teeth hurt. I don't think there is a level of silliness he won't sink to. How cute is that?
Kisses
Sunday, September 05, 2004
Saturday, September 04, 2004
Four to the Floor
Day four has been the worst so far. Must be because I had smokers at my house. We had a big BBQ with about 15 people. I ate non-stop (this should be fun) and spent a lot of the day hiding in my room. wOOt! Fun girl that I am. I can say that everyone was really nice about it, made me feel like it was ok to be close to the edge. Perhaps some sleep and water will make it all better.
Kisses
Kisses
Friday, September 03, 2004
Three - That's the Magic Number
OK, so three days. Cool. Worst part is the sleepless nights and malaria nightmares. Otherwise this is really good. My BF and I plan on staying in all weekend, sleeping and watching movies. He is helping me along. He is the best. (except when he gets all cranky on me, then I want to pinch him.)
Kisses
Kisses
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Day Two
And everyone is still alive! Everyone said it would be the worst thing EVER. So far (crossing my fingers) it has been OK. Annoying moments, little twinges, stuff like that, but nothing I haven't been able to breathe through.
Thank you to all my friends and family for your loving support. And THANK YOU to my loving BF who is being so kind and generous. You truly are the best.
Kisses
Thank you to all my friends and family for your loving support. And THANK YOU to my loving BF who is being so kind and generous. You truly are the best.
Kisses
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
The Camel Has Died
Today is my first day as a non-smoker. One day at a time, lots of lollipops.
(sweet & fresh) Kisses
(sweet & fresh) Kisses
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Silly Happy B-Day Girl
Today is my 35th bday. I am SPOILED. I had a party thrown for me on Friday night. My lovely friends made me wear a tiara all night. I wasn't alone. Dona made me gift bags to give to all my "ladies in waiting". Each contained a smaller tiara, lipgloss, a stuffed frog prince, a wand, and a rose candle. It was the sweetest thing. All the men had to wear crowns. Kris had a huge Princess Cake made for me. Carmen flew in with Alex and we spent the whole weekend laughing and snuggling. It was really nice.
Sunday my parents had a small supper party for me. Chatuea Brion, twice backed potatoes, veggies and a few FANTASTIC bottles of wine. I love that about dinner with the folks (dad and step-mom). Dinner was followed by....a Princess Cake (getting the theme here?)
Tonight my boyfriend and family (me, mom, and sister) are making me dessert and giving me many presents..heh. I am praying it isn't another Princess Cake.
Kisses
Sunday my parents had a small supper party for me. Chatuea Brion, twice backed potatoes, veggies and a few FANTASTIC bottles of wine. I love that about dinner with the folks (dad and step-mom). Dinner was followed by....a Princess Cake (getting the theme here?)
Tonight my boyfriend and family (me, mom, and sister) are making me dessert and giving me many presents..heh. I am praying it isn't another Princess Cake.
Kisses
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
The Down and Dirty
My BF moved in with me. Yep, that's the truth of it. In addition, he is now working with me as well. So far it seems to be going well. We haven't really been living together since he moved in because I was house-sitting one house while he was sitting our house, but I think I am kinda digging him being around. He is VERY sweet to me. Makes me laugh and smile all the time, and generally keeps to his side of the bed. I think he knows about the invisible line I have drawn.
We have had a pretty rough time getting to this place together, but I am feeling it has all been worth it.
Today is his birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY babe. Name your gift ;).
We have been watching the only season of Firefly together. I am really digging it! Super geeky and fun.
They are throwing me a BDAY bash on Friday at The Beauty Bar. I think close to 100 people were invited. So far looks like a pretty good turn out. Kinda freaks me out a little, not real good with the "center of attention" thing. Being a Princess doesn't make you not shy, just makes you spoiled ;). I am so very grateful to my friends who are doing this for me. They are such loving people, they really make me feel special. My BEST Friend is even flying in from Philly JUST to spend my BDAY with me. She ROCKS! I miss her so much since she moved away to school (all of two weeks ago, lol)! Can't wait to see her LOVELY face.
My BF took me shopping this weekend. New clothes, new books, and Chai Tea. We had a lovely time driving around in the convertible and getting all sunny. I just really enjoy spending time with him.
One week till I quit smoking and turn 35....yikes! Wish me luck.
Kisses
We have had a pretty rough time getting to this place together, but I am feeling it has all been worth it.
Today is his birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY babe. Name your gift ;).
We have been watching the only season of Firefly together. I am really digging it! Super geeky and fun.
They are throwing me a BDAY bash on Friday at The Beauty Bar. I think close to 100 people were invited. So far looks like a pretty good turn out. Kinda freaks me out a little, not real good with the "center of attention" thing. Being a Princess doesn't make you not shy, just makes you spoiled ;). I am so very grateful to my friends who are doing this for me. They are such loving people, they really make me feel special. My BEST Friend is even flying in from Philly JUST to spend my BDAY with me. She ROCKS! I miss her so much since she moved away to school (all of two weeks ago, lol)! Can't wait to see her LOVELY face.
My BF took me shopping this weekend. New clothes, new books, and Chai Tea. We had a lovely time driving around in the convertible and getting all sunny. I just really enjoy spending time with him.
One week till I quit smoking and turn 35....yikes! Wish me luck.
Kisses
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
#4131
I have been walking around with a Fuji Dole sticker on my forehead all day. People just point and stare. They don't understand.
I miss my Boyfriend...
I miss my Boyfriend...
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
It’s Been Awhile
Do I only post when I am sad. Seems so. Not only am I lazy, but I haven’t really been able to talk a lot about the happenings in my life…shhhsh, it’s a secret.
I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it’s going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you’ve never met anyone
who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you've ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected.
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
Who's as positive as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you’ve never met anyone as,
As closed down as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go
I'm the funniest woman you've ever known.
I am the dullest woman you've ever known.
I'm the most gorgeous woman you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as, as everything as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
And you’re still here
And you're still here...
Well not really.
Things move so fast. One minute, safe, sound, secure. The next…whooosshhh, rug, pulled, on my ass.
I am used to being on my ass. Seems like I set it up to happen, over and over, and over again. Kinda silly, isn’t it? I think love makes me a really easy target. Anyone else want to take aim? I didn’t think so. Some day I think things will settle down, some one will see the special in me and it will all make me melt. Until then…I think he said…c’est la vie.
Kisses
I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it’s going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you’ve never met anyone
who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you've ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected.
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
Who's as positive as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you’ve never met anyone as,
As closed down as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go
I'm the funniest woman you've ever known.
I am the dullest woman you've ever known.
I'm the most gorgeous woman you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as, as everything as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
And you’re still here
And you're still here...
Well not really.
Things move so fast. One minute, safe, sound, secure. The next…whooosshhh, rug, pulled, on my ass.
I am used to being on my ass. Seems like I set it up to happen, over and over, and over again. Kinda silly, isn’t it? I think love makes me a really easy target. Anyone else want to take aim? I didn’t think so. Some day I think things will settle down, some one will see the special in me and it will all make me melt. Until then…I think he said…c’est la vie.
Kisses
Friday, March 05, 2004
Sleep Comes Down
Sometimes, like tonight, I think I will sleep. I hope the nightmares leave me alone.
Bricks
I am waited down. I find it hard to breathe at times. I think about all the new information I have to take in and I am without air. I am in love.
Sometimes it isn't what we expect. I thought for sure this news would bring me nothing but joy, instead I am nothing but confused. I am finding it hard to sleep at night, food seems silly and not much can make me laugh. Not what I had in mind. How can I accept all these feelings and let things happen as they will. I am not sure I can. Perhaps I should walk away, find a safe place to hide and hope it will all pass. It hasn't so far; I must be kidding myself. I am in love.
Sometimes it isn't what we expect. I thought for sure this news would bring me nothing but joy, instead I am nothing but confused. I am finding it hard to sleep at night, food seems silly and not much can make me laugh. Not what I had in mind. How can I accept all these feelings and let things happen as they will. I am not sure I can. Perhaps I should walk away, find a safe place to hide and hope it will all pass. It hasn't so far; I must be kidding myself. I am in love.
Monday, February 16, 2004
Am I boring you yet?
It has been a rough week. My Carmelinda lost her grandpa and is in Minnesota at his funeral today. I didn't have the funds to go with her, which really upset me, but times are what they are so I settled it with myself. Prior to going to Minn., she had an interview at Bryn Mawr on Friday. I know it was really hard for her to even sit through the interview, but she said it went VERY well! An Ivy League school for Pea!! I hope she gets in, that would rock.
Yoga is super cool. After my second class I learned to relax into my poses and it turns out you wont be sore the next day. Who knew? (ummm, my teacher). I love the class, I am gonna start sneaking into Wednesdays also!! Although I still have to use blocks for most poses, I am getting closer and closer to touching my toes...heh.
Kisses
Yoga is super cool. After my second class I learned to relax into my poses and it turns out you wont be sore the next day. Who knew? (ummm, my teacher). I love the class, I am gonna start sneaking into Wednesdays also!! Although I still have to use blocks for most poses, I am getting closer and closer to touching my toes...heh.
Kisses
Monday, February 02, 2004
Maggie I wish I'd Never Seen Your Face
We got a new puppy!!! He is so damn cute, Mom named him Lincoln (a family name) but she changes it so often who knows if it will stick. He is all white except his ears and nose, which are spotted black and pink. He is about 12 weeks old, a mix of Great Dane and the Budwieser dog. he is a love, we napped together today.
I went to add classes today at school, I couldn't get into my Yoga class on Mondays and Wednesdays so I am moving it to Tuesdays and Thursdays which means no French class. A drag but I will take an Art class instead. Being on campus was cool. I thought I would feel really old but there is a HUGE adult population there so I was completely comfortable.
My ears are healed and I am hoping to go to Industrial Steel this week for new earrings. They have a huge collection of 10 gauge earrings so Carmen and I will prolly head over there after school one day. After school, heh.
Kisses
I went to add classes today at school, I couldn't get into my Yoga class on Mondays and Wednesdays so I am moving it to Tuesdays and Thursdays which means no French class. A drag but I will take an Art class instead. Being on campus was cool. I thought I would feel really old but there is a HUGE adult population there so I was completely comfortable.
My ears are healed and I am hoping to go to Industrial Steel this week for new earrings. They have a huge collection of 10 gauge earrings so Carmen and I will prolly head over there after school one day. After school, heh.
Kisses
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
OK, Ouch!
Carmen, Alex (her new man) and I went to Body Manipulations this evening...suffice to say I can NEVER walk into a place like that without doing SOMETHING, so I up-gauged my earrings. I went from an 18 to a 10. It stung man! But they are lovely and I have steel hoops with pink tigers eye capture beads. I figure by Friday I won't feel a thing. Carmen went from a 10 to an 8 and Alex peirced his tongue. A fun time for all.
My last day at work is Friday. I can not wait to be outta there. My life is gonna change pretty fast here. I am signing up for some classes on Friday afternoon at College of Marin. I am super excited.
I am in the process of changing my meds which means "washing" the Prozac outta my system (ugh, it makes me sooooo tired) and then in a month starting something new. I have a meeting with my Doc on Friday to discuss stragety to keeping me happy and sane.
Everything, well it will fall into place. I am finally letting go of everything toxic in my life and I think I will be a better person for it.
Kisses
My last day at work is Friday. I can not wait to be outta there. My life is gonna change pretty fast here. I am signing up for some classes on Friday afternoon at College of Marin. I am super excited.
I am in the process of changing my meds which means "washing" the Prozac outta my system (ugh, it makes me sooooo tired) and then in a month starting something new. I have a meeting with my Doc on Friday to discuss stragety to keeping me happy and sane.
Everything, well it will fall into place. I am finally letting go of everything toxic in my life and I think I will be a better person for it.
Kisses
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
Who Knew
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming in tales
Heads are a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming in tales
Heads are a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Soul Weary Tired
I resigned from my job with the government. Yep, thats me...unemployed again. Well not right away actually, I have a few months to finalize my short-life with the Man. I am so done. I will look for something new, I will be ok.
My fatherhas offered me his Mercedes in exchange for my Audi. I get his free, he gets my payments. I will really have to consider this offer, it seems pretty rocking.
Things are changing in my life. The end of a long-time ride. I am both thrilled and saddened. It is time. Soon it will all be over.
Kisses
My fatherhas offered me his Mercedes in exchange for my Audi. I get his free, he gets my payments. I will really have to consider this offer, it seems pretty rocking.
Things are changing in my life. The end of a long-time ride. I am both thrilled and saddened. It is time. Soon it will all be over.
Kisses
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