It's very hard to write when your mind is all over the place. For the last year, I have worked so hard to balance my mental health with my physical woes. Both are on the right track but it hasn't been easy. There are days when I just want to stay in bed, eat jellybeans and watch Netflix. And I do.
Recently I went back to KIT. A new clinic opened 10 minutes from my house with a very well-known KIT advocate/doctor. Yesterday was my second booster in 30 days. My dosage went from 110 (last June) to 86. My new doc has concerns about neuro-damage at higher levels so we cut back to a lower dose and somehow, it was more intense. I started the session thinking "why would anyone use this for fun" and ended with "weeee". That begin said, I will never use Ketamine recreationally. Not that I use any drugs for fun, but this one in particular is insanely wild.
My mom said to me, when we were chatting about KIT that she thought I would go through the initial treatment and I would be done. So did I; or at least I had hoped that was the case. There is no knowing if KIT will be something I continue to work with in the long run but the research suggests that it is the major breakthrough that mental health advocates have been waiting for. The gods know I certainly waited long enough.
xoks