I haven't written much about my mental health lately. Mostly because, since I completed my KIT, I haven't felt the need. My depression, which has been like my invisible twin for most of my life, is now just a ghost. That isn't to say I don't have feelings; I have the feels all the time. It's just that issues that used to floor me (mind you, issues that most people would easily brush off) don't have the same impact that they used to. I have the occasional mild anxiety attack but I am better equipt to breathe through it, refocus, and move on. It's a kind of freedom I never thought I would have and I could not be more grateful.
KIT doesn't work for everyone - about 80% of the people in trials seem to get the kind of relief that I am experiencing - and while I would like to think that I will never need another booster, it is a really great feeling knowing that should I ever start to slip into the dark again, I have immediate and long-lasting help. My last booster was on June 18th. I have used the nasal treatment six times. It's a much lower dose with a much lower absorption rate but it does kick start my brain and allow it to do its healing thing. When I brought it home I feared I would use it as a crutch, but that isn't the case. I have two refills before December 15th and I won't have even used an eighth of the bottle.
I am still at 75 mgs (down from 150) of my anti-depressants. I hope to cut that in half before the end of the year. Weaning off has serious side-effects so I am moving slowly but I am hopeful that one day I will be altogether free of medication.
As for my physical health, sigh, that's for another post. On the plus side, no cancer, on the minus side, no real answers. That's the body for you...