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I am Hotter Than You

I am laying here, in D's apartment, drowning in my own sweat. It is after 6:00 pm and it is still 109 degrees. Today has been a day of laying about, drinking water, sitting in the A/C. In other words a day of nothingness. No laundry, no cooking, no touching. We have ordered dinner in. We have two epsisodes of Eureka to watch. We are content to just be sloth-like until the sun sets. My only regret is that the we are out of beer. Sigh.

The Count-Down

Three weeks from today I will be in Barcelona. I am so excited I can barely stand still. Being a Virgo I have already started my packing list. Two weeks from home means at least one very large bag, if not two. Carmen will kill me if I bring too much. Although we will be based in Girona I believe we will be traveling down the coast to see family and I am sure she doesn't want me lugging a trunk along. I will do my best.

I made all my plans to be in NOLA at the end of October. I have my hotel booked, my airfare paid for and my tickets to the concert. I will be taking a study course for three days while in NOLA so my company footed the bill on the hotel, very cool of them. Since I had already planned on buying the airfline tickets it all worked out. Eight days in one of my favorite cities in the states. I feel so fortunate.

I have also purchased tickets to see Train, Tool and tomorrow I will get tickets to see Sheryl Crow. I have been missing live shows so I am making up for it.

Tonight I am off to D's to make dinner and watch a movie. I am already running late so I best hustle.

SPAIN, SPAIN, SPAIN...Did I Mention SPAIN?!

So I booked my flight to Spain. I will be there for two weeks with my best friend Carmen. Tripping in Barcelona and Gerona, her birth-place, and perhaps a short trip to Biarritz. My little brother is in Europe for six weeks and is staying with a family in France. We may try to peak in on him for a few days. There is a chance that we won't head to France just because we will be visiting her family and may not want to take the time away. Either way, I am happy to just be with Pea.

I am also planning another trip to NOLA. I am going to see the Red Hot Chili Peppers and Duran Duran on Halloween at the VooDoo Festival! I am praying Carmen will join me, provided her field studies are done. I think I have already hooked Ms. Lyn into the deal!

So much has happened recently that I just haven't had the time to blog. In order - after NOLA, which was an amazing trip, I went on a long-weekend cruise to Mexico for Kris' bacholrette party, and then went to Philly to see Carmen receive her masters degree. We celebrated so hard the night before I am shocked any of us made it! I had nine chocolate martini's at The Continental. Gods help me. I have a million pictures to post and I will do so as soon as I have a free dozen hours or so to commit to the task.

Kris and Pavlos finally made it to the alter a few weeks ago. The wedding was beautiful. The reception is a blur. A major blur. I remember everything until about midnight when the tequila shots came out...sigh.

Work has been a handful. I LOVE my job; the people I work with and the environment are brilliant. There is so much work to do and I know how it all goes but there are times I am buried under a pile of work and think it will never end. But better to be busy then to be bored, and I am never bored.

Oh, did I mention SPAIN!

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my dear little sister Jeanne. She committed suicide several years ago after a long, hard struggle with alcohol and her personal demons. I miss her, I love her and I hope she is happier wherever she is today.

"i am so ashamed to see the damage i have done"

An Apology

I have only ever removed one other post from my blog. Today I have removed another. Seems that I am spreading unkind rumors and I will not be that person. I apologize to anyone who was affected. From here on out I will no longer mention those that found my blog to be so offensive.

Too Much Information

I was informed today that I have been promoted to Director of HR at my company. Along with more responsibility I received another increase in salary and stocks. This last increase took me over six figures; something I have been working towards for the last 10 years. I could not be more pleased right now. I have worked so hard for my current company and it has really paid off. The level of trust and respect this company has shown me makes me feel amazing, I will continue to work hard for them.

I know I haven't updated in a long time. After my trip to NOLA I went to Mexico on a cruise with some gfriends and then to Philly to see Pea get her Masters. She is now in her PhD program. She never ceases to amaze me.

I have a million pictures to post and just as many stories to tell but right now I am just too busy to really sit down and hash it all out. I promise to catch you all up soon.

I Can't Remember to Forget You

Off She Goes (like she wasn't already a little "off" to begin with)

I am heading to New Orleans (via Texas) in a few hours. Lyn and I have decided to blog twice a day while we are there so we set up a site just for our trip:

Whore Tour

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Who Goes There?

I spent last weekend in San Diego visiting the kids with D. I know, I know...but I love those kids and rarely get to see them so I skipped down on Friday afternoon as a surprise. It seems the kids know me too well; although they were thrilled to have me there, they both said they expected to see me. I am so predictable.

I am leaving for NOLA on Wednesday. I am so excited to be making this trip. I haven't spent any time with Lyn in years. We are looking forward to adding to our criminal records.

In early May I am off on a short cruise to Mexico with a few girls. The next weekend I am off to Philly to see my best friend get her Masters. At the end of July we are planning a two-week trip to Europe - one week in Ireland and one week in Spain. It has been years since I have left the states, I am really looking forward to this summer.

I am sure I will be making another jaunt to SD as well. As close as I am to D's family, I will want to spend some more time with the kids. His family has taken me in as one of theirs and I feel the same. Nothing there will ever change and that makes me smile.

For my Mom

My mother is a wonderful person who has taught me how to be the person I am. I can not express my gratitude for everything she has done for me. She has always been supportive, caring, trusting (well there was that one time - but I was 13 and she was right not to trust me, I was bad) and loving. She has always taken responsibility for her wrong doings, and has always allowed me the time to learn from mine.

I can not thank her enough. I can not love her enough. She will always be there for me and that knowledge makes me a stronger, better woman.

Bar Night

Once again, we drank too much, smoked too much and had too much fun. Don't you wish you were there?

Schism

I know the pieces fit
'Cause I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smouldering
Fundamental differing
Pure intention juxtaposed
Will set two lovers' souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes
Testing our communication
The light that feuled our fire then
Has a burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end
Crippling our communication

I know the pieces fit
'Cause I watched them tumble down
No fault, none to blame
It doesn't mean I don't desire to
Point the finger, blame the other
Watch the temple topple over
To bring the pieces back together
Rediscover communication

The poetry
That comes from the squaring off between
And the circling is worth it
Finding beauty in the dissonance

There was a time that the pieces fit
But I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smouldering
Strangled by our coveting
I've done the math enough to know
The dangers of our second guessing
Doomed to crumble unless we grow
And strengthen our communication

Cold silence has
A tendency to
Atrophy any
Sense of compassion
Between supposed lovers

I know the pieces fit

My love to Tool

NOLA

I finally did it! I booked my flight to TX to see Miss Lyn! We aren't actually staying in TX, we are heading to NOLA for Easter weekend to visit her family. She asked me along and how can I say no?

We will be in TX together for only one full day but she promised to take me downtown this time. Otherwise you will see our asses pounding NOLA pavement, a drink in one hand and a shopping bag in the other!

Can hardly wait. Thanks for the invite girl.

Happy Birthday Beautiful

This weekend was my sister's 40th Birthday. She looks like she is turning 30. The bitch.

We threw her a party. Her best friends Anna and Jennifer themed it the 80's. They blew up pictures of all of us for the walls. They played all sorts of awesome music. There was a ton of food and a ton of good friends. Overall I think Alicia really enjoyed herself.

So... HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE. I love you!

Wouldn't More Than It's Done

Cool headed one
Started out as fun
Now it's sealed and delivered
All that's left is one
Started out to work it all out
But I couldn't fit the shoes

Oh well hope there's an angel
Looking out and watching over you

If love was a gun
Wouldn't hurt more that it's done
No if love was a gun
If love was a gun yeah

Hot headed one
What's done is done
Now it's sealed and delivered
Mercy's on the run
Woke up this morning
I was all cleaned out
Lord I just wanted to cry

Oh well hope there's an angel
Looking out and watching over you

If love was a gun
Wouldn't hurt more that it's done
No if love was a gun If love was a gun yeah

Angel, angel, angel, oh yeah

Fast living one
Now the race is won
Things got as hot as
The surface of the sun
No doubt we burnt it all out
Our summer's been and gone

Oh well hope there's an angel
Looking out and watching over you

Thanks Divinyls

Another Sleepless Night

This is the last day of our acquaintance
I will meet you later in somebody's office
I'll talk but you won't listen to me
I know what your answer will be

I know you don't love me anymore
You used to hold my hand when the plane took off
Two years ago there just seemed so much more
And I don't know what happened to our love

Today's the day
Our friendship has been stale
And we will meet later to finalise the details
Two years ago the seed was planted
And since then you have taken me for granted

But this is the last day of our acquaintance
I will meet you later in somebody's office
I'll talk but you won't listen to me
I know your answer already
I know your answer already
I know your answer already

Thanks Sinead

Red Hot

There must be something
In the way I feel
That she don’t want me to feel
The stare she bares cut me
I don’t care
You see so what if I bleed

I could never change
Just what I feel
My face will never show
What is not real

A mountain never seems to have
The need to speak
A look that shares so many seek
The sweetest feeling
I got from you
The things I said to you were true

I could never change
Just what I feel
My face will never show
What is not real

I could have lied I’m such a fool
My eyes could never never never
Keep their cool
Showed her and I told her how
She struck me but I’m fucked up now

But now she’s gone yes she’s gone away
A soulful song
That would not stay
You see she hides ’cause she is scared
But I don’t care
I won’t be spared

I could have lied I’m such a fool
My eyes could never never never
Keep their cool
Showed her and I told her how
She struck me but I’m fucked up now

I could have lied I’m such a fool
My eyes could never never never
Keep their cool
Showed her and I told her how
She struck me but I’m fucked up now

Thank you Peppers