Anger Management

Damn me, I just can't stay mad. No matter what I do or how hard I try, I just can't do it. It always turns to sadness and then regret, and then sadness again. God I am such a sucker. I know in my heart how bad anger is for you, but I just want to be able to hold on to it until I am READY for it to go. Alas, that ain't me, so I will just have to live with sadness till I am ready to let THAT go...

Next...

I went with Paulie and Carmen to see Confessions of a Dangerous Mind. Let me tell you, this movie rocked. I was totally caught up in it. I am ready to run out and buy the book now because the story really engaged me. I highly recommend it, in a surreal way.

And Another...

My house is entirely unpacked! I am so excited, I put the living room together and we are ready to have a big old house warming any day now. When, I can't even begin to guess, but soon.

Will She Ever Shut Up...

So I was talking to my friend the other night, about how I haven't been on a real date in like 10 years. 10 YEARS PEOPLE! Ouch. What is wrong with me? Am I not date worthy? Am I just some girl you think "I should move in there with that brunette (I am now a brunette) down there at the other end of the bar. Skip all the romance, forget about giving her flowers, and I certainly don't want to take her to a movie or anything....Oh, what was I talking about?" Cause that's what it looks like to me. They come in, take and take, and forget to give back. It sucks, it really does. Now I know I am being whiney, and my longest love bought me tons of things; jewelry, clothes, dinners, trips, so on. He was very generous with me as I was with him. But the last one...well, he didn't seem to think I was worth the effort. Now, I am just being a brat, but here it is, the last guy I dated, I gave him tons of gifts, and he was very grateful and that made me feel good, but I hit a wall with it this last X-Mas when I not only paid for a gift for him (which he never paid me back for) but was told that he had bought himself a few very expensive toys before he moved and he couldn't even be bothered getting me a card for the holidays. It really hurt my feelings. I kinda thought I would get this inexpensive ring from him that I wanted (it costs about $20) because he elluded to it once, but I was given nothing, as I should have expected. I know, poor, poor Princess. But this really isnt about the "gifts" it really is about the thought, and I am tired of people not thinking about my feelings.

OK, so now that you all think I am spoiled...


I guess I like it when we play (the way you drag me down)
I guess I like it when you hate me (the way you drag me down)
But I can't face myself in a mirror (I'm left alone with all my pain)
But I can't face myself in the mirror (I'm left alone with all my shame)

Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I'll heal you in me

I guess I like it when we fight (the way you drag me down)
I guess I like it when you smite me (the way you drag me down)
But I can't face myself in a mirror (I'm left alone with all my pain)
But I can't face myself in the mirror (I'm left alone with all my shame)

Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I'll heal you in me
You're out of luck can't get a piece of me
It's all blown up don't ever fuck with me
I cannot please you all forever
I cannot please you at all
(I can feel you up behind me)

Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I'll heal you in me
Fuck it! I see you in me
Fuck it! I feel you in me
Fuck it! I'll heal you in me

Seether - Fuck It!

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