Tattoos Tattoos

Tattoos tattoos....Ahhh new tattoos are good for the soul. Whenever I get my heart broken or have a big change in my life I get a new tattoo. Poor Carmen, I make her do it too. Not that she really minds, she gets a nice new tat for free this time, only cause I know how hard it is to just watch. So we went to Moms, and let our bodies be abused by Henry. He is a doll, except when I am whining about the pain and he is yelling at me to "TAKE IT ALL BITCH". It makes Carmen giggle, it makes me shut up. So what did we get, you ask? Well, Carmen got a wonderful dragon on her right upper thigh. It is mostly black work with some pink highlights. It is really lovely. And me, well I always chose something that will remind me of the "time". So I got a flaming heart. It is beautiful, colorful and crowned! I will try to get pics up ASAP. In the meantime, just pretend you can see can see our creamy white thighs all colorful and pretty.

My weekend was awesome. I stayed with Carmen all weekend and hung out with Livia and Mary too. Friday night we went to Jerry and Ritchies for a dinner celebration. After eight months, Jerry finally got a job and we get to keep him here in the Bay Area (unlike most of our friends) so we celebrated with food and WAY too much beer. I was the responsible one, I didn't drink, I just watched everyone get fucked up and laughed. They were so awesome. I haven't laughed like that in SO long. I have missed them a lot over the last year while I was in my emotional coma. My own fault, I know, but still...

We didn't get home until after 3 AM so I was wiped out on Saturday. Carmen and I went to Mills College (where Carmen attends) to run a short experiment for her thesis. It was fun. She is super smart girl! We then went to get the above-mentioned tattoos. It was totally spur of the moment, must do something new to my body kinda thing. We were done by 7 o'clock, went to pick up Livia and went to Carmen's place to make dinner. She cooked (that's twice in a weeks time) and Mary joined us. We had a nice time just cooking and chatting. Carmen and Livia had a performance at the Justice League for Capoeira. I was so wiped out I stayed at Carmen's with Mary and we chatted it up till midnight. We prolly could have talked all night, but both of us figured it was wiser to get some sleep.

Slept late on Sunday, woke up to Carmen and Livia giggling in her living room. We had breakfast and hung out. Showered and headed out. Picked up Paulie and hung out some more. Sunday night we went to Paul's house to watch last weeks Buffy (thank you Emerson and Tivo). Fun episode, especially Willow (mmmm Willow). Carmen was beat (and so was I) so we went back to her place to get to bed early. It was all warm and cozy and safe.

So that was my weekend. Very nice, funny, painful, colorful and wonderful. My friends are the best. They love me and take care of me and make me happy, am I fucking lucky or what?

It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way?
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can't stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin', It ain't workin' (No, it ain't workin')
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy, this is crazy (This is crazy, uh-huh!)

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself?
As painful as this thing has been
I just can't be with no one else
See I know what we've got to do
You let go, and I'll let go too
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin', It ain't workin' (It ain't workin' !)
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy, this is crazy

Care for me, care for me!
I know you care for me!
There for me, there for me!
Said you'd be there for me!
Cry for me, cry for me!
Why won’t you cry for me?
Die for me, die for me!
You said you'd die for me!
Give to me, give to me!
Why won't you live for me?!

•Lauren Hill - Ex-Factor


You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when im with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

And I worry 'bout the ring you wear
Cause as long as no one knows
That nobody can care
Your fellin guilty
And I'm well aware
But you don't look ashamed
And baby I'm not scared
Im singin...

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
It better off if you don't ask why
I'm not the reason that you go stranded
We'll be alright if you don't ask me to stay

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when I'm with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....

Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

•Uncle Kracker - Follow Me