Today was another roller coaster for me. Mostly I am OK but I have moments where I just sort of fall apart. Something very small can trigger me. An email from someone I would never have thought would have cared about what I am going through, a check-in from my other mom, my best friend joking about setting me up with a "nice Jewish man". Although thee things make me smile, they also make me cry. I know everyone intentions are kind and I really appreciate everything everyone is doing for me, but it doesn't make it any easier.
I have spent most of today working on the house. Keeping busy is really good for me. I am trying not to over think what happened. I am trying to accept it and move on. That is all there is left to do.
It was nice to hear that my family in SD is sorry to see me go. They have sent me so much love and so many well wishes. D made a joke about how I need not worry about losing them, it was he who was going to be shut out. Not funny and not true, but it was kinda cute when he said it. I know these people love me and I know that when I am ready I can always go spend time with them.
For now I am just learning to let go. These last five years have been hard, and I need time to heal.
I have spent most of today working on the house. Keeping busy is really good for me. I am trying not to over think what happened. I am trying to accept it and move on. That is all there is left to do.
It was nice to hear that my family in SD is sorry to see me go. They have sent me so much love and so many well wishes. D made a joke about how I need not worry about losing them, it was he who was going to be shut out. Not funny and not true, but it was kinda cute when he said it. I know these people love me and I know that when I am ready I can always go spend time with them.
For now I am just learning to let go. These last five years have been hard, and I need time to heal.
2 comments:
Prin,
You don't know me but Nigel said to stop by your blog and leave you a note. Sorry to hear about your loss. It really does hurt, doesn't it? But just keep in mind that you have lots of good, loyal friends and also remember "What goes around, comes around."
PS. At least you won't have to deal with that 'death wail' anymore.
Take care.
you dont know me but a few days ago cheking profiles I´ve read about your losse, hey im sorry, because I think I know how you feel and its pretty sad :/, I know *everyone* tells you "with time things gets better" and its true... I am only 23 and I can tell you with my short experience, you will feel better.
Take care :)
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