70mg

Yesterday was treatment number two. The same process as the first time except my brother was there to support me this time. I am lucky to have such a loving, supportive family.

On the first treatment, he gave me 45mg.  A low dose but one that had me floating in a lovely little cloud. The doc thought we would go to 60mg this time but when he saw how well I was handling 60mg he pumped it up to 70mg. Let me just say, I have no idea why anyone wants to do this for recreational fun. I was out to lunch for over an hour. Brain spinning, body somewhere else, auditory hallucinations. It wasn't scary but it was intense. I can't relay the thoughts I had running through my foggy brain but I do know I kept finding "why's" (see March 13th) over and over again. Family, friends, music, travel; all these small why's adding up to enough to make my heart feel strong again.  

Today I am not as euphoric as I was on Wednesday but I feel really good. The doc says this is normal; session one, very powerful, session two, a little less impact on your mood, session three can be a breakthrough session. Four, five and six are to keep the dendrites moving and signaling. I say bring it on.

xoks