Tomorrow is my final treatment. Since we went up to 110mgs it has taken me longer to recover between sessions. Mostly I am plain exhausted. It is also much harder to describe what happens when I go under. The thoughts come so fast and get jumbled together. I have to open my eyes more often to make sure I am still in the room but I can't really see anything since my sight is so distorted. It is never frightening but it is disorienting.
I am very excited by the changes I am seeing. I not only feel lighter, but I am functioning at a higher level. Small things that I used to resent (washing my hair, feeding the criminals, making coffee) no longer feel like a burden, they are just simple things we do in our daily lives. I have more energy (48 hours after treatment) and I smile more often. The dark circles under my eyes have lightened and I am looking forward to upcoming events I have planned. I am no longer living in the darkness.
I am hopeful that this will last. From what I have read, treatment six is the kicker. Whether or not I need boosters down the line doesn't matter to me. I feel and see the immediate changes and life feels worth exploring again.
xoks
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