I am five days post my 7th KIT. It has been a little bit less familiar or steady. Small hits of anxiety out of nowhere. Manageable. Foursquare breathing, feet on the ground, what can I see, smell, hear, feel?
Where I am struggling is adding additional techniques into my life. I hate exercise, always have. I like to eat what I want to eat. I am a skeptic so anything that feels too touchy-feely, hippy, new ageish instantly makes me growl like a wolf to ward it off. No idea why I am so reticent (resentful?) around the idea of meditation, energy, crystal work, or what not. I have done small amounts of meditation and it has felt very good, yet, like any hobby I take up, I stop very quickly after stopping.
I have all these people in my life who enjoy SO many things. I like sleeping, smoking, eating, drinking (which I haven't done in months) reading, live music, sex, Netflix, and Amazon Prime. I am a simple girl. I wish I could find just one additional thing that I LOVE that also included leaving my house a few times a week. I am going to purchase a few single classes to see if anything sticks. Music can't be the only reason to get out of bed...
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