and not my ugly side...
I feel like I have been in hiding for so many years. Two or three different KS's. Each person in my life helping me decide who to present in their presence. Do they need me to be smiling, funny, goofy? Is today a day they need the empath in me to be ultra-available? Tonight will they look for kinky, sexual, easy? I know I am made up of all of these traits (and many, many more) but the exercise of trying to show up in form has become impossible.
This is no one's fault but my own. I can be insecure, fragile, needy. I crave being liked and have broken myself in two to be loved. I am your basic, slightly broken human being who is, at 47, relearning her way through this world.
xoks
ps - I am not that easy
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